I was going through some of your notes to me, and I saw this very funny and naughty diagram you drew and the games that followed after. I am reminded of your wits, imagination, creativity and your mind-blowing ........... Everything about you is just awesome.... I remember you in your 'I'm awesome' shirt by one of your favorite WWE star - The Miz. Nothing is apt and accurate in summing up who you are. You are simply awesome. You loved life and you lived it, you impacted lives and you imparted into peoples lives, your presence here on earth was deeply felt in your love and kindness. These will continue to resound in the hearts and minds of all of us forever. It all still borders on - How do I come to terms with living without my soul? for me, it was all about you Everyday I miss you, from the very first day this restlessness began till the finality of it. Nothing changes Bunmi, nothing! The lonesome feelings, the depth of pain, the confusion in mind, the distress in my soul..... This will never make any sense to me. Every time I sleep, I see you in my dreams.... still caught up in that space and time It's impossible that you are not here, your space and place is vacant. It's a wide space and a deep hollow.....it's a huge vacuum Bunmi! I see your face- the beauty of it, the brightness and calmness of it, That face! When shall I behold again? That finger, the strong, beautiful, long fingers! When shall I grasp a hold again? My Heart! When shall I breathe again.... Nothing is the same again... But be rest assured in my love for you... It is undying. I cannot understand, I cannot relate, I cannot comprehend But I know the Good Lord, knows it all. HE is my Balm in Gilead. Rest on Heart of my Heart. You are still awesome.